Jan 17, 2010

My Broken Bottle of Feelings

all those words i said

before i send you the file

i'm alrdy kinda expected that from you

this words is gonna come out sooner or later

its obvious enough isn't it, even if i dont say it

yes, like you said- i gave up

i tried doing that but somehow i cant

the feelings kinda get stronger as time pass

i duno how to describe this

i can just say that this is the first special feeling that i get

probably u dun feel it for me

i have it for you

the guitar is the only thing that i have

to express my emotions- sad, anger, happiness

i just cant believe i locked myself up in the toilet

playing guitar for entirely 2 and a half hour

singing sad songs throughout

i dun feel any better

attended church today

all of my cellmates made fun of me about my hair

not knowing of what had alr happened to me

and i just broke down like that after having enough

yes, i did laugh with them previously and tried to be okay

but somehow they pinpoint their jokes on me

and im glad that we still can be frens

somehow i feel worse to let out my feelings rather than keeping it safely in my heart

i duno what kind of emotion is gonna be hang on my face tmr in sch

i jus hope there wont be awkward between both of us

right now, i know its impossible to forget you

i'll just watch over you in the dark

my door is always open for you

my smiles are all fake

i know that i have loved you ... at Sunday, January 17, 2010
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